written and recorded in 2011
@ cypress chill, santa cruz
lyrics
i think i know by now what you’re going to say
“i’m sorry you have to hear this, but it’s the only way”
or “i’m sorry i’m hard to deal with but there’s nothing we can do”
but i thought i’d take my chances.
don’t you know that i wanted to?
there’s just so much to undo, so much more to lose
i still can’t quite believe you tried to make me choose
as if i had options. but that’s not how i roll
yet i thought it would be easier. now it’s taken its toll
on me
i’m not gonna say that you fucked me over
but you led me to believe that i could be your savior
i know you’ll say you didn’t say you didn’t try to warn me
as you stare and sigh at your ashy shoelaces forlornly
i wish you would believe me when i say that you’re worth it
but it’s getting hard to tell when our words have gone to bullshit
this wasn’t supposed to be this hard. is it harder for you?
don’t mean to be so resigned, but what the fuck am i supposed to do?